Is my Peter Pan complex showing?

So, I don't want to grow up. I don't really think I ever REALLY wanted to grow up except when I was playing army as a kid and now that I know what real army is like, I'm done and can go back to being 6. I hate the idea of having real responsibilities that have large repercussions and having to do adult things. I hate relationships(this is an entirely different rant, but in short you women make great friends but go CRAZY in relationships and I'm not an RM so I'm not good dating stock anyways) I hate having to make payments, I love working but I hate bosses I feel like they're rarely smarter than me but somehow they are paid more and in charge of me and have god complex, I hate having to be knowledgeable, and I REALLY hate the fact that if I'm doing nothing to progress in life then everyone will look down on you. You know what I'm saying here? I obviously have some life aspirations(meet Chris Nolan, witness a collapsing star, ect) but when I get out of the army then I feel like doing NOTHING for a while and since I won't be able to get into BYU-I in the fall then that means I'll will have the chance to sit around for the winter. I'll be able to get unemployment for 3 years or so and I think I'll do it so I can just enjoy being free for a while, but I don't want to introduce myself as someone freshly out of the army, I don't want people to know I was in the army, I just want to be "Phillip" you know? But normal conversation goes along the lines of "Oh, I haven't seen you in a while what are you doing now?" and when I go "I'm sitting around seeing how many marshmallows I can shove in mouth on any given Monday afternoon" and you can see it in a persons face as they go "Oh...And what about after that? You have a job or are planning on school?" I don't want to have to validate myself to them, and the army IS a way of validating it in a sense to where when I tell people that have known me for a while that I'm planning on doing nothing then they all say something along the lines of "Good for you!" "You've earned it!" or such but I shouldn't have to do that. This is America, home of the lazy, don't look down on me for not wanting to do anything for a while.

Bored Times at Ghazni High

I just couldn't think of anything to put as a title so you get that. Really nothing new is here, I'm just living life some more. I'm starting to think of packing things and getting ready to go home and how I'm going to live in Idaho, ect. I need to buy a new car and that seems like it will be a pain as well as me needing to find a roommate and I really don't want to make new friends/be forced to live with someone who I don't know so we'll see how that works. If I work at Island Park than that will give me some time to work it out(WOOO! Procrastination!) Erm, lessee here. Nathan and Whitni are blogging more often now so that makes me happy to read about their lives, I miss them alot. I wish you guys all blogged more so I could read about all the things that are happening.

Oh, random thought I had the other day:I wonder if water will run faster if it is warm than if it were at a temperature right about freezing. Water has weird properties so I don't know if laws of kinetics really apply to it or how I would figure it out but it could be a nice way to spend some time.

Oh, I also found Hayley Whittier's blob(Cory's wife) so that's way cool, I only got to meet her briefly at the Haunted Mill when I was on leave, but if I know Cory then I can only assume she's amazing. I read some of her old blogs about when he proposed and everything, it was very...*think of right word*...Hmmm. I can't think of the word right now that won't emasculate me so you guys just go read it yourself.

Anyway, I'm still alive. I also noticed I started the last two "paragraphs" with "Oh" that's kinda annoying me but I'm not going to change it or else I wouldn't be able to have this sentence and it makes this post look longer than it it. Bye everybody!

I like a Belsprout, I have performed growth

To begin I just wanted to let you all know that the Jaredites used the word "Tight" way before any of use. Ask Brooks, I'm sure he knows.

Anyway, it's that time of year where we all look back at how little we've changed over the year or rather how little we've improved while changing alot. Thus is the case with me. I turned my facebook page into a "Timeline" which is actually pretty cool but unfortunately it also allowed me to look back at my facebook in 2007 WAY too easily. As I looked back at my full timeline(2007-now) then I realized how much I've changed and grown into a cynical, sarcastic, commie hating adult. It was weird just to be able to see posts on my wall and what I posted on other walls at my young age. So while I have grown from a more naive teenager to a slightly less naive man-boy. I think I've grown positively in accomplishments and world knowledge, but it has definitely made me more cynical and critical of the world as a whole while my intelligence as a youth made me cocky even though I'm basically on the same level as my peers now, so I just come off as a conceited moron. I can't say I'm happy with the person I am now, but I'm also not disgusted, so that isn't a bad thing. I don't fear Brandon Lee coming back to life and hunting me down, but I still fear death because I'm NOT making the 1st string in heaven.

Anyway, enough with general long term growth, in the last year as a whole then I also haven't done that much growing in positive terms, particularly spiritually. This year I have the added benefit of knowing how little I've improved because I wrote down NYRs on my iPhone and can read what I was supposed to do instead of just forgetting about it. I did get better about going to the gym, probably became slightly healthier(now I may live to 31 before the heart attack hits) but I have almost never attended church this year even when given the opportunity, I rarely read scriptures and rarely pray and as a whole don't really feel like a "Mormon" anymore. I'm LDS in my words(well, not ALL my words) but not my actions because I simply lack actions to do good things. I can't think of anything BAD I've done this year but I've also done nothing positive, but par for the course is OK, right? Wrong. I believe that life is very much like an escalator, if you aren't moving your feet then you're going down. So, because I'm cut short on time by the need of sleep for mission then I'll just leave it at that. More later, perhaps. This year should be better?

Thanksgiving, Christmas and all those other days

I'm still here(knock on wood) and I'm just a terrible blogger. If you know me at all then you know that I get into a routine and then I fall off the face of the planet to everyone not in the routine. For those of you that don't know that about me, treasure the time you are in my routine, or if you hate me than just know that it will all be over when I change routines. Anyway, when I got back from leave I stopped dismounting and became a gunner, so now I have to clean another gun when I'm off from mission. Also, we are starting missions later because of the lack of daylight, so I just seem to get free time so late and then get stuck in my routine(dinner, mission brief, movie with Gonzo, sleep, rinse, repeat as necessary) All well, I guess.
Anyway, Thanksgiving. Well, we were in the middle of a 7 day mission in a tiny base with nothing there except us and a bunch of Polish and Afghan forces, so we keep to ourselves which was always fun. 72 actually came down on Thanksgiving day and so both platoons were there and we had a BBQ and ended up staying up late and party-boying everyone we could find. Also, in our company than we have a game called "Get the Cookie" and all it is(bear with me here, its been a long deployment) hold someone down and slap their butt...ALOT. so we got into a big platoon cookie getting war and that was a blast. We had a few games of chicken and we would randomly go up to our leadership that was there and take their cookie. All in all, it was a really fun Thanksgiving.
The next month went by pretty boringly, nothing really exciting happening. Harry had to go away for surgery and he'll be back soon(hopefully for his birthday on the 27th) and I had another friend, Josh(thecanadianPheniseh) go home for his back after he got hit by an IED, but he seems to be OK, he's just trying to get healthy again. Menard got moved to Florida nearer his family(Louisiana) and they are supposed to take the trach out of his neck soon, so hopefully he'll be talking soon, I'd really love to talk to him. Harry and I are going to try and go visit when we get back. He was fistbumping to A Day To Remember and has asked for his glasses, so that's a good sign, it means that he's still in there and has his memory so thank God for that.
Anyway, now it's Christmas Eve. It really takes me back, that's for sure. I have so many good memories of Christmases past, including last year when I got to be home(It seems like SOO much longer ago, doesn't it?) and when I was a wee little kid back in the Redwood home(I miss that place). It's been really fun here, just goofing off with everyone. Hmmm, not sure what to say here now. I'll just go off on random tangents for a few minutes I guess. I got the box from home, it was way great to get, I really liked the pictures and bored a few of my friends showing off my family to them. I beat Arkham City(the new Batman game) and it was SOOO good. I beat it in 2 days(about 6 hours each. I play to win...) so it wasn't REALLY long, but there is alot more I haven't done yet so I'm excited to try and fill out the rest of the game. So, I can't take my ACT here, so I think I'll have to find something else to do next fall, which kinda makes me sad so I just don't think about it. I think I might try and hang out in Missouri now or something until school starts. I don't know, the nearer I get to being home the more I want to be traveling, you know? I am single and can go to school somewhere else and live there for a while, so I think I might do that. It will be hard, but should be fun and a good experience. I've experienced too much outside the US, time to travel some inside of it, methinks. Anyway, I think that's it. To end I'll list off some Christmas phrases:
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!
God bless us, everyone.
Every time a bell rings an angel gets its wings!
You'll shoot your eye out!
The best way to spread Christmas cheer is singing loud for all to hear.