It's a trend I'd like to keep going. Harry got home yesterday, and even though I like to think of myself as an independent person, I'm not, and I got to missing him, so it was awesome to hang out with him last night. Harry, Old Man, and Baxter came over and we ordered pizza and watched Once Upon A Time In Mexico, which I love. I love random action films like that, the ones you can make fun of but still watch the action. If you feel like watching a comedy or an action film it has you covered.
Anyway, my friend Lauren is always making these awesome lists of awesome things, so I think I'll give it a try.
-I have a bedroom that looks like it could belong to a very smart collected person, but he shares the room with a 9 year old from the 80s, and I'm ok with it.
-On my days off then I can play 16 hours of video games and not consider it a waste.
-I like to drop any pennies I have in change, because I'll never use them and maybe someone will pick one up and get good luck from it.
-I could drive for hours with a person I like and never get bored or have to stop.
-You can tell I really trust you when you suggest a song I should hear and I buy it on iTunes instead of just looking for it on youtube.
-Sometimes my habit of not lying about stupid things gets me in trouble a lot and sometimes when I tell people my reason for doing some things then they think its so funny that they just sit and stare at me for a minute then walk away laughing.
-I think Twitter is retarded. It's only Facebook status updates. I don't want to get updated that often on what people are doing. Isn't it bad enough we already have people that abuse their status to tell us stupid things? "I ate a bologna sandwhich, yum!"
-When the Jazz lose then it ruins my night.
-When the Jazz win then I can do no wrong. I'm going to start buying scratch tickets and saving them till a night they win.
-I can't go to sleep without listening to something.
-I'm so nerdy, I watch other people play Starcraft 2.
-The movies I really love, I don't watch with anybody that has never seen them before because if they don't like it then it will taint my view of them forever.
-I'd rather go out of my way to avoid talking to a stranger than ask them the tiniest questions or interact with them at all.
-I really miss my friends, but I'm not sure if I want to go back to Idaho to live.
-I really want to be the "cool uncle" that all my nephews and nieces want to hang out with.
-I have more fun with kids than I have with adults most of the time.
-I have no idea how to end this post.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Frank's Visit
Ok, I meant to have posted again much sooner than this, but I refuse to accept that it's Tuesday already. At any rate, pretty normal work week, on Friday then I was helping in the arms room for a while and that night we all got called in and told a weapon was missing and because I had been in there I had to have my room searched. Sgt Will(my old squad leader from Iraq) searched it and after a while they found where the weapon was, it was a clerical error and a civilian company had it, they just didn't realize it at first, but that was fairly nerve racking.
On Saturday then I ended up going with my buddy, Frank, who I had deployed with. He was in town visited for the first time since the summer, and he got a fight in Osage Beach and me and him drove down there for it and got to catch up on the ride there. When we got there we met up with his sister, Jen, and we went to eat before the fight. We ended up meeting a few more people at the fight there to support him and he was fight 10 out of 14, so he had a long wait, and none of the fights were that great, it was fun to hang out with Jen and Britney that were both sober and watch Daniel, who was not sober, hit on Jen and Russ, also not sober, sink more and more into the stages of his drunkenness.
When it came to Frank's fight then he was up against a slightly older person who looked pretty strong(Frank said he was) and it was a really good fight. The first round was pretty lopsided for the other guy, he took Frank to the ground and Frank panicked(standard for Frank in the first round) and Frank got saved by the bell at the end of the round. The second round went to the ground again and Frank began to get some composure again and it was a pretty even round with a few good hits. The third round then Frank almost got a lock when the guy speared, but the guys' neck basically dissapeared(he was a really good grappler) and it ended up going to desicion. Frank lost 30-27, but he was happy. He said he was worried about his first loss and now he knows he's not going to be depressed he's happy with it.
After the fight we stayed for the last few which were all really good and then left to various bars(no worried, Jen, Britney and I were all DDs) and went back to a condo that we had reserved earlier and we ended up being up till about 5 or 6. The bars closed at 2, and then we went back and I left to get food and Frank and I went to Dennys and got back around 330 and he went to bed and I saw Britney getting hit on by Duke and Master P, two people I don't know really well, but I could tell she didn't like it, so I stayed up and sat with them till those two went to bed. I was SOOO tired and Frank ended up getting me up at 10 and we left. Jen, Britney, Frank and I went to Denny's and the service was awful, its put me off from Denny's for awhile, but we ended up splitting up afterwards. Me and Frank talked again on the ride back, which is way more fun that I can put into words on here, and I'm not going to try and recreate an hour and a half of conversation to show you, but he's one of my favorite people, I really missed him, I look up to him alot. On Sunday night then I was at home and Frank texted me saying they were playing beer pong at JCs so I took Old Man and Lurch over there to play for a while. Me and Lurch almost beat JC and his wife, who had a monopoly(don't worry Lurch drank for me) and after a few hours we left again.
On Monday then Frank and I left to Jeff City to visit a friend of ours Becky, who neither of us had seen in about 8 months, so that was nice to see her again. I stayed at my house with Old Man and Lurch last night and this morning, Frank had to leave today in the afternoon, which was sad, but it was a really fun day. Lurch, Old Man and I watched old video game reviews by Angry Video Game Nerd, who is hilarious(parental advisory:swearing. Don't say I didn't warn you) and then Lurch left and Old Man and I just played games and watched TV and hung out. Not I'm here. This weekend was a really great weekend, I'm sad I probably won't see Frank for over a year unless we get to see eachother when I'm on midtour leave, but its OK, I suppose. He did mention that when Tavis(our buddy from Iraq) gets back from his next tour(around when I get out) then they were planning on doing the appalacian trail and he said I should get down on it, which I think would be a great way to celebrate being a free man again. I guess for now then I'll just have to keep doing what I'm doing and let life happen.
On Saturday then I ended up going with my buddy, Frank, who I had deployed with. He was in town visited for the first time since the summer, and he got a fight in Osage Beach and me and him drove down there for it and got to catch up on the ride there. When we got there we met up with his sister, Jen, and we went to eat before the fight. We ended up meeting a few more people at the fight there to support him and he was fight 10 out of 14, so he had a long wait, and none of the fights were that great, it was fun to hang out with Jen and Britney that were both sober and watch Daniel, who was not sober, hit on Jen and Russ, also not sober, sink more and more into the stages of his drunkenness.
When it came to Frank's fight then he was up against a slightly older person who looked pretty strong(Frank said he was) and it was a really good fight. The first round was pretty lopsided for the other guy, he took Frank to the ground and Frank panicked(standard for Frank in the first round) and Frank got saved by the bell at the end of the round. The second round went to the ground again and Frank began to get some composure again and it was a pretty even round with a few good hits. The third round then Frank almost got a lock when the guy speared, but the guys' neck basically dissapeared(he was a really good grappler) and it ended up going to desicion. Frank lost 30-27, but he was happy. He said he was worried about his first loss and now he knows he's not going to be depressed he's happy with it.
After the fight we stayed for the last few which were all really good and then left to various bars(no worried, Jen, Britney and I were all DDs) and went back to a condo that we had reserved earlier and we ended up being up till about 5 or 6. The bars closed at 2, and then we went back and I left to get food and Frank and I went to Dennys and got back around 330 and he went to bed and I saw Britney getting hit on by Duke and Master P, two people I don't know really well, but I could tell she didn't like it, so I stayed up and sat with them till those two went to bed. I was SOOO tired and Frank ended up getting me up at 10 and we left. Jen, Britney, Frank and I went to Denny's and the service was awful, its put me off from Denny's for awhile, but we ended up splitting up afterwards. Me and Frank talked again on the ride back, which is way more fun that I can put into words on here, and I'm not going to try and recreate an hour and a half of conversation to show you, but he's one of my favorite people, I really missed him, I look up to him alot. On Sunday night then I was at home and Frank texted me saying they were playing beer pong at JCs so I took Old Man and Lurch over there to play for a while. Me and Lurch almost beat JC and his wife, who had a monopoly(don't worry Lurch drank for me) and after a few hours we left again.
On Monday then Frank and I left to Jeff City to visit a friend of ours Becky, who neither of us had seen in about 8 months, so that was nice to see her again. I stayed at my house with Old Man and Lurch last night and this morning, Frank had to leave today in the afternoon, which was sad, but it was a really fun day. Lurch, Old Man and I watched old video game reviews by Angry Video Game Nerd, who is hilarious(parental advisory:swearing. Don't say I didn't warn you) and then Lurch left and Old Man and I just played games and watched TV and hung out. Not I'm here. This weekend was a really great weekend, I'm sad I probably won't see Frank for over a year unless we get to see eachother when I'm on midtour leave, but its OK, I suppose. He did mention that when Tavis(our buddy from Iraq) gets back from his next tour(around when I get out) then they were planning on doing the appalacian trail and he said I should get down on it, which I think would be a great way to celebrate being a free man again. I guess for now then I'll just have to keep doing what I'm doing and let life happen.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Pressure makes diamonds?
True statement, yes? Yes. However, its not an instant thing, it takes time, time is fleeting, so pressure will just make us rubble. True statement? Probably not, but that's just how I feel sometimes. Today I just felt down for some reason. Old Man, Hammy(roommate) and I were all up way too late watching movies and playing games and just being dumb, so I woke up at noon when Old Man came over again and me and him played more games and we really just sat around all day. When I say that, it always sounds depressing, but the fact is, we don't drink, and there is VERY little to do around here without drinking, so we play games and enjoy our own company and that's how we have fun. Last night then Ned and Kevin and Archie come over and all of us watched The Fighter, they all liked it, I love it, and then they left and we kept fooling around, that's a typical day for us. I'm not sure HOW happy I am with that, but I can live with it for now. There are some things I'd like to do, but can't right now. Relearn piano, learn guitar, learn a foreign language, I just don't. Not yet. Also, today was Old Man's birthday, but he didn't want to do anything, and he enjoyed himself, so good.
Anyway, back to rubble. Sometimes I feel just like a pile of crap, I'm not sure why. I felt that way for a bit before I realized what it was. I feel like I'm stuck. I feel like this alot, it usually is this when I'm depressed in some way or another. Today I felt like I'm no longer part of a family, and won't be for a while. I talked with Whitni about it for a while, and I suppose I felt better, but it boiled down to this:My parents are gone from my home state, where I want to be for a few years, I think. All my siblings in that home state(Seth aside, he...Well, he's another issue for me) have made their families and are doing their thing. My family is gone and made their own. Now I'm not a member, I'm an accessory to theirs. I'm always Uncle Phillip or the brother in law, and that's just how it is. I'm not where near getting married and making my own family(not willing to rush into that just yet) and you're probably saying "Hey, stop being silly, plenty of people are in the same boat as you" but here's the difference, in my mind: They all have their good friends, their niche, their place of belonging. I have friends sure, but I have no good friends anywhere it seems. I'll be leaving Harry and Andrew is going to be heading to college and in the time since I joined the army he's found new guys to hang out with. He and I are still really great friends, the best of friends, but we are anything but a support structure for the other. I mean, we CAN support eachother, but we don't. Not unless we need to. Its hard to explain. I mean, we still are best friends, but I feel like he replaced me. He can be my best friend and we'll still find time to hang out, but we don't just have the time like we used to. Not a time issue, if that's what you're thinking, but it used to be "I invite Andrew and Phillip is coming. I invite Phillip and Andrew is coming" I mean, we were a pair, but now its not that way. Every coin has two sides and I won't have mine. Nathan went and got married(Not a negative thing in the least) and now he's either with Whitni or working, and even if he hadn't gotten married then he'd be in the same category as Andrew.
I'm not really sure how to resolve this feeling I have or this post, so I'll just do one of those challenge things and call it a night.
Day 16 - Your celebrity crush. This is a good question. Herm.....Tonight I think we'll go with Yvonne Strahovski. She's Sarah in Chuck, she was born in Australia, and she was Miranda in Mass Effect. Other than that she hasn't done much, but she hasn't done anything negative and I just kinda like her. Hey, look! There she is now!
Isn't this just a coinky dink(yeah, that just happened)
Anyway, back to rubble. Sometimes I feel just like a pile of crap, I'm not sure why. I felt that way for a bit before I realized what it was. I feel like I'm stuck. I feel like this alot, it usually is this when I'm depressed in some way or another. Today I felt like I'm no longer part of a family, and won't be for a while. I talked with Whitni about it for a while, and I suppose I felt better, but it boiled down to this:My parents are gone from my home state, where I want to be for a few years, I think. All my siblings in that home state(Seth aside, he...Well, he's another issue for me) have made their families and are doing their thing. My family is gone and made their own. Now I'm not a member, I'm an accessory to theirs. I'm always Uncle Phillip or the brother in law, and that's just how it is. I'm not where near getting married and making my own family(not willing to rush into that just yet) and you're probably saying "Hey, stop being silly, plenty of people are in the same boat as you" but here's the difference, in my mind: They all have their good friends, their niche, their place of belonging. I have friends sure, but I have no good friends anywhere it seems. I'll be leaving Harry and Andrew is going to be heading to college and in the time since I joined the army he's found new guys to hang out with. He and I are still really great friends, the best of friends, but we are anything but a support structure for the other. I mean, we CAN support eachother, but we don't. Not unless we need to. Its hard to explain. I mean, we still are best friends, but I feel like he replaced me. He can be my best friend and we'll still find time to hang out, but we don't just have the time like we used to. Not a time issue, if that's what you're thinking, but it used to be "I invite Andrew and Phillip is coming. I invite Phillip and Andrew is coming" I mean, we were a pair, but now its not that way. Every coin has two sides and I won't have mine. Nathan went and got married(Not a negative thing in the least) and now he's either with Whitni or working, and even if he hadn't gotten married then he'd be in the same category as Andrew.
I'm not really sure how to resolve this feeling I have or this post, so I'll just do one of those challenge things and call it a night.
Day 16 - Your celebrity crush. This is a good question. Herm.....Tonight I think we'll go with Yvonne Strahovski. She's Sarah in Chuck, she was born in Australia, and she was Miranda in Mass Effect. Other than that she hasn't done much, but she hasn't done anything negative and I just kinda like her. Hey, look! There she is now!
Isn't this just a coinky dink(yeah, that just happened)
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Westerns, Kung Fu and Pokemon
As you can tell by my title, this has been a good weekend for me. My roommate was pretty sick all week, and he and I have a dynasty on NCAA 11 we play, so I spent alot of time in his room and on Thursday and Friday I woke up feeling like I was beaten with a bag of quarters. So, I thought it would be good to not mess with the status quo and stay in my room this weekend. Old Man(Also known as Janes or Chris)'s wife and daughter left early on Friday so he came over Friday night and he and I played games and hung out for the night. I decided to break out my old Pokemon game this morning(its still Saturday, for the record) and made it past the spot I was stuck at and have been playing on and off all day. I spent the morning playing that and watching college basketball and then Old Man came over in the afternoon and we played some games online with Ned and Will and that was pretty fun. We ended the night watching some westerns and kung fu movies, something I plan on doing again tomorrow and Monday. He hadn't seen The Quick and The Dead, so we're finishing that up right now. I forgot how dated this movie is, but I still enjoy it.
Oh, I had the strangest dream last night. Mom, Doc, and I were traveling and pulled into some strange town and they had something they had to do without me, so they just dropped me at some corner. For some reason that didn't bother me much, I feel like in real life I'd at least have them drop me off at the movies or something, but this was just the curb at a residential area. After a few minutes I noticed this girl staring at me and I guess I must have said hi or something, because the next thing I knew we were going on a date at this nice restaurant. I can't really remember talking about anything, but it seemed like it was enjoyable and after a while then I paid and we magically teleported to her house and I left and I got to the end of her street and had a "OH CRAP!" moment, again I have no idea what over, but it suddenly became VERY important that I got back to her(I'm pretty sure I loved her) so I started running back and I had the enlongating hallway trick played on me (curse you, mind! You win this round) and never got there, but instead woke up. Even though I have no idea who this girl was(the one thing I remember discussing with her was that her name was Charlene), what we talked about, or why I suddenly needed to run after her, this dream bothered me all morning. The really weird thing about this dream is that for my dreams its pretty tame. Ex:Once Seth got bull rushed and killed by a large female Wal Mart employee. Like, she wanted to find us, and got us corned in an isle with one opening, bent over and made bull horns with her fingers and charged at his. I was able to burrow out of the way in time through some cereal boxes, but Seth died. Yes, I have strange dreams.
I know its no longer a daily thing, but I don't care, I just want to do them all for the sake of finishing.
Day 15 - Something you don't leave the house without:I'm not the dependent on anything, to be honest. I'll leave my phone at the house just because I feel like I'm being bothered to often, so that's out. I'd like to say I take my wallet, but I forget it plenty enough. I don't wear glasses. I usually take my iPod, but not all the time, again. Oh, I do wear pants and a shirt though. Needless to say, I'm white enough to make paper look like Westley Snipes and I remain that way by never showing any skin whatsoever. It keeps people from mocking my ridiculous whiteness.
Anyway, it is nearing that time where I sleep, so I'll probably be posting again in a while. Till then.
Oh, I had the strangest dream last night. Mom, Doc, and I were traveling and pulled into some strange town and they had something they had to do without me, so they just dropped me at some corner. For some reason that didn't bother me much, I feel like in real life I'd at least have them drop me off at the movies or something, but this was just the curb at a residential area. After a few minutes I noticed this girl staring at me and I guess I must have said hi or something, because the next thing I knew we were going on a date at this nice restaurant. I can't really remember talking about anything, but it seemed like it was enjoyable and after a while then I paid and we magically teleported to her house and I left and I got to the end of her street and had a "OH CRAP!" moment, again I have no idea what over, but it suddenly became VERY important that I got back to her(I'm pretty sure I loved her) so I started running back and I had the enlongating hallway trick played on me (curse you, mind! You win this round) and never got there, but instead woke up. Even though I have no idea who this girl was(the one thing I remember discussing with her was that her name was Charlene), what we talked about, or why I suddenly needed to run after her, this dream bothered me all morning. The really weird thing about this dream is that for my dreams its pretty tame. Ex:Once Seth got bull rushed and killed by a large female Wal Mart employee. Like, she wanted to find us, and got us corned in an isle with one opening, bent over and made bull horns with her fingers and charged at his. I was able to burrow out of the way in time through some cereal boxes, but Seth died. Yes, I have strange dreams.
I know its no longer a daily thing, but I don't care, I just want to do them all for the sake of finishing.
Day 15 - Something you don't leave the house without:I'm not the dependent on anything, to be honest. I'll leave my phone at the house just because I feel like I'm being bothered to often, so that's out. I'd like to say I take my wallet, but I forget it plenty enough. I don't wear glasses. I usually take my iPod, but not all the time, again. Oh, I do wear pants and a shirt though. Needless to say, I'm white enough to make paper look like Westley Snipes and I remain that way by never showing any skin whatsoever. It keeps people from mocking my ridiculous whiteness.
Anyway, it is nearing that time where I sleep, so I'll probably be posting again in a while. Till then.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Lazy weekend
This has been a nice weekend, just what the doctor ordered in fact. I've just sat around for all of it. On Friday night then Harry and Bret came over and we made Macaroni and cheese with brats in it(one of our traditional meals) and watched Alpha Dog, which we had heard was good. It was pretty good, not a favorite or anything, but worth watching. Then they went home and we all got on xbox live and played CoD together until early morning, so that was fun. Saturday then I woke up nice early, went on a run, and then slept again till about 2. But the important thing is I DID wake up early and run. Chris came over in the afternoon and surprised me with a pizza, so he stayed most the day and we just played games and watched TV, so it was relaxing. Last night then Harry and I were playing games and Andrew got online so I got on with him and spent all night playing games with him. I'm SOOOO tired now, all well. I feel like it was a mistake to stay up all night, but we rarely get to play together, so I'm ok with it.
Harry leaves for two weeks tomorrow, I'm really sad about that, but I'm glad he gets to go to school, I do feel like it snuck up on us though, we never really got to do any goodbye hurrah hangout thing like we normally do and I feel bad about that. I don't think he's upset by it, but I feel like a good friend would have done something, rather than nothing.
Today then Chris and his family came over this morning before they leave next weekend for the deployment. Chris is just going to have his wife live with her mom while he's gone, so its too bad she and the kid are leaving already, their kid is a sweetheart, she's awesome. Me and her played all day with MMs and jumping on the bed and all sorts of fun things, so I guess she's worn out. Random awesome fact:me and her were sitting on the bed playing and she was sitting in my lap and Chris said "Cripe, you look like a dad" and I was like (in my head) "YOU ARE FRICKING RIGHT I DO!!! I'M GONNA BE AN AWESOME DAD!!!"
Anyway, this next week is supposed to be a LONG week, so I might not post again till next week.
While we're here:Day 14 - A TV show you're currently addicted to. Hmmm, I'm watching The Big Bang Theory, and its pretty good, I'm not addicted. I'm also watching this anime Tangen Toppa Gurren Lagann that I got from Harry, it's one of his favorites of all time and I really like that one. I guess those will do for this question.
Oh, btw:Lauren made it to North Carolina fine and safe and she's so happy that it actually makes me jealous. Yes, I'm a bad friend, but I'm jealous of her happiness, haha.
Harry leaves for two weeks tomorrow, I'm really sad about that, but I'm glad he gets to go to school, I do feel like it snuck up on us though, we never really got to do any goodbye hurrah hangout thing like we normally do and I feel bad about that. I don't think he's upset by it, but I feel like a good friend would have done something, rather than nothing.
Today then Chris and his family came over this morning before they leave next weekend for the deployment. Chris is just going to have his wife live with her mom while he's gone, so its too bad she and the kid are leaving already, their kid is a sweetheart, she's awesome. Me and her played all day with MMs and jumping on the bed and all sorts of fun things, so I guess she's worn out. Random awesome fact:me and her were sitting on the bed playing and she was sitting in my lap and Chris said "Cripe, you look like a dad" and I was like (in my head) "YOU ARE FRICKING RIGHT I DO!!! I'M GONNA BE AN AWESOME DAD!!!"
Anyway, this next week is supposed to be a LONG week, so I might not post again till next week.
While we're here:Day 14 - A TV show you're currently addicted to. Hmmm, I'm watching The Big Bang Theory, and its pretty good, I'm not addicted. I'm also watching this anime Tangen Toppa Gurren Lagann that I got from Harry, it's one of his favorites of all time and I really like that one. I guess those will do for this question.
Oh, btw:Lauren made it to North Carolina fine and safe and she's so happy that it actually makes me jealous. Yes, I'm a bad friend, but I'm jealous of her happiness, haha.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Who has two thumbs and feels pretty good?
This guy! Not sure why, I just showered and I feel awesome for some reason. We'll get one of these things crossed off the list and then we'll go into my day.
Day 13 - Your favorite musician and why?
This is a hard question for me, I like SOOO many bands and musicians, but I'm going to go with The Hush Sound. The Hush Sound is a band that Nathan showed me when I was in junior high, and I love their songs(you can find a few on youtube, if you want)and I've never had a time when I haven't felt like not listening to them. More that that, it reminds me of when I was younger and it was just me, Nathan, and Andrew hanging out all the time, which was a good time for me.
This week at work was really long and hectic, they split up my platoon and folded us into the other platoons and I ended up in Ops, which is really don't like. I feel separated from all my friends and like I'm useless, but hopefully I'll be reintigrated soon. With this week being hectic though, it also means we are getting VERY close to this deployment, which is really sad but also REALLY exciting, as soon as I'm done with this deployment then I'm OUT OF THE MILITARY!! I know it shouldn't make me so happy to be out, but I hate getting older without going to school or going on my mission. I'm becoming socially retarded as far as girls are, since I'm so rarely around them, and all knowledge that was once crammed in my head has been slowly leaking out the last few years, I don't want to have to gather it all again. I'm excited to be around my family for a long time again and not feel pressed for time or anything. It will be nice to be dictated by myself for a few months or so. Until then all I have to do is survive. Piece of cake.
Day 13 - Your favorite musician and why?
This is a hard question for me, I like SOOO many bands and musicians, but I'm going to go with The Hush Sound. The Hush Sound is a band that Nathan showed me when I was in junior high, and I love their songs(you can find a few on youtube, if you want)and I've never had a time when I haven't felt like not listening to them. More that that, it reminds me of when I was younger and it was just me, Nathan, and Andrew hanging out all the time, which was a good time for me.
This week at work was really long and hectic, they split up my platoon and folded us into the other platoons and I ended up in Ops, which is really don't like. I feel separated from all my friends and like I'm useless, but hopefully I'll be reintigrated soon. With this week being hectic though, it also means we are getting VERY close to this deployment, which is really sad but also REALLY exciting, as soon as I'm done with this deployment then I'm OUT OF THE MILITARY!! I know it shouldn't make me so happy to be out, but I hate getting older without going to school or going on my mission. I'm becoming socially retarded as far as girls are, since I'm so rarely around them, and all knowledge that was once crammed in my head has been slowly leaking out the last few years, I don't want to have to gather it all again. I'm excited to be around my family for a long time again and not feel pressed for time or anything. It will be nice to be dictated by myself for a few months or so. Until then all I have to do is survive. Piece of cake.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Can't sleep and I feel reform coming.
Its not that I feel reform coming, but that I've felt bad about certain things in my life for a long time and rather than change them I just let them sit. Not sure why I do that, but I do. I guess until I'm unhappy with my overall life then I don't mess with anything. But I feel like I need changes. One of those changes is just with this blog. Right now, even I'm bored with it. That's not a good thing. I made it so that I could keep in touch with everyone, but I rarely talk about anything that really matters, how I feel about anything, I just post some short paragraph and get off of it. Worst of all, when I read it then it feels very juvenile, like something that would be read as a narrative to a crappy teen movie, not even a good one. So, I guess I'm going to try and do better on here about all that, even if it means devoting some actual time and effort to this.
The other day then my plane was delayed and while I was waiting then I decided to make a list of New Years Resolutions. Not that I buy into the "Once a year self improvement" I generally have some goals in mind but I never dedicate them to paper(or in this case, phone memory) so maybe having written them down will help me keep track of them and make some good progress. We'll see. At any rate, I'll share a few of my goals with you, and why they're goals of mine.
1)Go to the gym 5 days a week, including Saturday. This is in addition to the normal army stuff in the mornings, but I need to improve my fitness for this deployment and just so I can be happier about when I pig out.
2)Stop sleeping in till noon or later on days off. This just makes me feel like a slug and then I get into the habbit of it, and I miss out on precious time that I could be doing something important, or just slacking off awake, so I don't slack off later when something important comes up. I'm really bad about that, and if you don't know what "that" is allow me to explain. Sometimes I'll sleep till noon, wake up and play some games and then I'll get a call from someone who isn't a great friend, but still a friend, and he might say something semi fun we could do and rather than go out and hang out then I'll think to myself "Well, I haven't played this game or watched this episode and I could do that now" and I end up not going out. So, if I wake up at say nine-ish then I can watch TV and shower and play games and then when someone calls then I can be like "Heck yeah! Let's go do that mediocre thing I normally wouldn't enjoy doing but am going to do now out of boredom!"
3)Be more hygenic on days off. Again, I'm notorious for just lounging, and on lounge days then I just don't do ANYTHING. I mean wake up, cereal, games and tv all day, sleep. No shower, deodorant, ect. because I just think "Meh, I'm not planning on leaving today, what's the point." so I should change that. Good habbits, people, stay with me.
4)Ok, this next one is a bit more personal, but I was trying to get one of my good friends of mine(or I felt like we were good friends) to talk to me, because I had a semi important question that needed answering and I felt like she would know something good to say about it, and EVERY time I would call then I'd get no answer and then a text back saying "Hey, can't talk now, what's up?" or something to that extent, and that's gone on for a pretty long time, but I never thought much of it, but this time I told her I really wanted to talk and she wouldn't find the time to answer, so after a bit of talking(texting) then I got her to say that she was intimidated by me, and felt like every time we talked on the phone or in person then she didn't like it because she didn't have time to think about what she was going to say, so she always avoided it. We talked for a bit, but the point it this, I need to let the people who I care about in my life KNOW that I care about them and how I think they're awesome. I might be quick to poke fun at someone for something stupid they've done or said, but I never say a mean thing with the purpose of making someone feel bad, just providing everyone else with something to laugh at, does that makes sense? I mean, I'll make fun of myself if I do or say something stupid, too. Anyway, another bullet for working on.
5)Read scriptures and pray 6 nights a week. Again, hard habbit to build, easy to lose. I lost it, and I need it back. Going alongside this one is going to church every sunday possible. I often make up lame excuses for not going AKA too tired, football game on, ect. I still feel like a good spiritual person, but these things will help me. I REALLY do want to go on a mission after I'm out of the army, and there are a few things that make me not want to, but at my core then I NEED to go on one. When I was younger than it was all I wanted to do, and I honestly could never feel like a complete man unless I can someday tell my kids about where I did my mission and bore all my family members with pictures. I guess that comes down to wanting to be an example, and I think I could get away with saying "Oh, no I was in the army instead of doing a mission" and I'd feel fine to every adult I'd talk to about it, but when it comes to a)dating girls and b)one day raising kids then there is no reason to NOT go on a mission. I always feel like crap when I meet a really awesome new LDS girl and at some point then they think "I wonder where he went on his mission" and I have to say that I haven't gone yet, I could not take it if I was older and trying to date and I just said I didn't go. I wouldn't feel right raising a boy and telling him about how important a mission is and then saying "Oh, but I didn't go, I had better things to do." Even if he was only 8 the first time we talked about it, I'm sure he'd always remember that I didn't go, and it doesn't make him want to go, like seeing Ben go made me want to go. So, even though I want to be a good person to make my family, future wife and kids, the Utah Jazz, and all those other important people proud then I want to do it for me, so I can feel good about myself.
Yeah, that's about all of that I can think of right now. But, its up to you guys to keep pestering me about how I'm doing with them and making sure I'm staying on top of things.
I'm still not tired so let's talk about leave some.
Well, I got in town on the 18th or so and didn't do much that first night, just kinda hung out but the next day at church I ran into Andrew and me and him and we hung out for the next couple of days, not doing anything really exciting, but just lazing around and playing games like we used to do. Me and Andrew have this rare superpower that no matter how long it's been since we've seen each other, as soon as we see each other again than it's like we just saw each other yesterday. It's pretty awesome, because there is never any awkward goodbyes or hellos.
One Monday after I came then Andrew and I decided to go to lunch at Lazy D's, my friend Devvon's eatery, in Shelly and then go see Tron. We both got philly cheese steaks and were going to split a family fry. For those of you that don't know what a family fry is there are only two things you need to know:1)Go to Lazy D's, its amazing and 2)Its a giant monstrosity of fries made for large families, and almost no families actually finish it. Anyway, about halfway through my PCS I decided that it was important for us to finish that family fry. About 5 fries after that, Andrew decided he was done....We were only about 100 fries into this 700 fry project. I did the only thing I could do. The thing a real man would do. I ate fry after fry until it hurt. Then I continued to shove fries down my throat at the blazing fast pace of about 1 fry per minute. My epic struggle went on in this fashion for about another 40 minutes, and with about 100 fries left then I heard the fat lady warming her voice up and wanted to cry. I unbuttoned my pants and continued to drearily eat the fries. 50 left and I wanted to vomit with each fry. For the last hour or so people were telling me that I was crazy and to stop and that they didn't understand why I was doing it and all I could say was "I told myself I'd finish" between sobs. About 30 fries to go, and I did the unthinkable. I gave up. I could hardly move anymore I was so full and my legs had begun to fill in with fries. I may not have won this round, but I'll be back again....In several years.
Other fun things from leave. Well, I had wanted to see Lindsey Nelson at some point, but she was busy until after Christmas, and so was Lauren and Nathan was busy working and so on and so on. So, up until Christmas then I just lazed around and watched TV, but I'm ok with that, it was fun.
On Christmas Eve then I ended up coercing Ben into playing some basketball with me on the X-box and ended up losing track of time, but it was fun, and the next thing I knew it was 11 PM and I had to be at Mel's and Danny's house for the night, so I went over there. Doc was asleep downstairs in the same room I was going to be in, so I could snuggle with him on the couch(HA!) or sleep on their love seat. The love seat didn't seem like a bad idea at the time, so I got up on it and got ready to get to bed and then I realized that it didn't recline so I'd have to sleep on it sideways and put my head on the arms. Then I found out that both the arms seem to have had all their stuffing surgically removed by small child sized hands and were now just a layer of clothe over wood. That wasn't going to work. So, I sadly slunk down to the floor and curled up cat style and only got stepped on about 10 times as Leto walked over me. I swear he hit me with each of his four feet every time he walked by. I was woken far earlier than I'd prefer(noon, remember?) by Tristan who was saying I needed to come up to open presents and I told him I'd be up soon, and then rolled over and went back to sleep. Around 30 seconds later then Alex was there. And then Tristan again. Seeing I couldn't win this battle, I got up and went upstairs with them and we did the whole Christmas thing. It was pretty nice, I ate far too much candy, but I regret nothing, except the next morning chocolate hang over. We ended up going to Ben and Linda's for dinner and the next day the family, including Haley, Dallin, Hunter, Chris and two of his boys, all got together at Mel's and Danny's for a Christmas get together and that was nice to see everyone. I ended up going downstairs with the kids and we made a blanket fort that went OVER the TV and watched Stewart Little in there. Feel free to be in awe of my fort making prowess.
The next day I hung out with Nathan and Whitni in the morning, and Lindsey in the night and that was fun. The next day Lindsey and I went on a date, and that was pretty fun, too. The next week or so was just hanging out with various people like Devvon and Nathan and Whitni.
One night I was hanging out with Devvon and we were on our way to Subway when I got a phone call from Lauren, who I had been trying to hang out with for a while but she's ALWAYS busy since she's moving and trying to say goodbye to everyone, and she had a squirrel in her house and needed to me come and get it out. So, I went over there and met her and Courtney Williams there and they said the squirrel was in the family room, so I opened the door to the outside and tried to chase him out, and after about a half hour of searching for him to no avail I decided that he must have run out, but she kept a trap on her table, just in case. Even though it was to chase a squirrel out and we didn't get to hang out much, I was glad to see her. In case you were wondering, she ended up getting the squirrel in the trap the next day, I felt very immasculated by it, but at least she got it.
I ended up eventually convincing Lauren to go on a date with me, since that seemed the only way I could hang out with her and this just so happened to be the day that Ben needed help moving ALOT of crap out of an old house. A few days earlier he had been told that if he moved it he could keep whatever he wanted, and I had agreed to help him. We started moving and it was WAY more stuff than we had imagined. I had showered that morning, but after moving stuff all day and playing with the dust bunnies than my deoderant didn't stand a chance. We eventually got done at 5 and I had just enough time to shower again in time for the date(cutting it a bit close) and since I had spent all day moving that then I had put absolutely NO thought into the date, except to worry that I had one that evening. As such, I had no idea what do to or where to go, so I last minute checked Fandango and got tickets for How Do You Know and The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, just in case she didn't want to see How Do You Know because of its rating. We ended up going to TGIF and eating and then seeing HDYK(guess the extra tickets were moot, all well) and even though it was a good date then I felt bad. The last time I took her on a date then I was sixteen and Curtis had proposed a double date to the sand dunes and we organized the date in about 45 minutes for a fire out there with hot dogs and smores and it turned out badly planned. Curtis forgot the fire started or any fire source, so he went and got that with his date while Lauren and I played frisbee. Then he remember that hot dogs need condiments and left to get that while Lauren lit everything she could fit into the fire on fire. Eventually the date came together, and it actually turned out a good date, as did this one, but the moral is the same, I am incapable of planning a date out well as long as she's involved.
The next few days were basically just the goodbyes and nothing else REALLY exciting. It was a good leave break, I wish I had another.
I was really sad on Sunday to be leaving and the plane ended up getting delayed(remember that story?) which made me irritated, but it turned out to be a small blessing in a disguise. I ended up talking to this cute girl who was in the army while we were delayed and about 3 hours after were were supposed to have landed then the finally boarded the plane and it turns out that we had been seated next to each other, which was awesome. We ended up talking the whole flight even though we were both way tired, but she was just amazing, and I was enjoying talking too much to sleep. We ended up exchanging phone numbers at the end of the flight and she's here are FLW for a while, so that made a real crap day into a great day.
After getting my bags I met up with Harry and Kevin and we left STL. Kevin went to sleep in the back and me and Harry caught up with the last few weeks events and talked the whole way back and just jammed out so music we love. We got back this morning at 6 and my leave was officially over.
Now its 1 AM and I need to be at work at 630, so I guess I should go to sleep. Hopefully I can keep up with good posts like this, keep pestering me when I don't.
The other day then my plane was delayed and while I was waiting then I decided to make a list of New Years Resolutions. Not that I buy into the "Once a year self improvement" I generally have some goals in mind but I never dedicate them to paper(or in this case, phone memory) so maybe having written them down will help me keep track of them and make some good progress. We'll see. At any rate, I'll share a few of my goals with you, and why they're goals of mine.
1)Go to the gym 5 days a week, including Saturday. This is in addition to the normal army stuff in the mornings, but I need to improve my fitness for this deployment and just so I can be happier about when I pig out.
2)Stop sleeping in till noon or later on days off. This just makes me feel like a slug and then I get into the habbit of it, and I miss out on precious time that I could be doing something important, or just slacking off awake, so I don't slack off later when something important comes up. I'm really bad about that, and if you don't know what "that" is allow me to explain. Sometimes I'll sleep till noon, wake up and play some games and then I'll get a call from someone who isn't a great friend, but still a friend, and he might say something semi fun we could do and rather than go out and hang out then I'll think to myself "Well, I haven't played this game or watched this episode and I could do that now" and I end up not going out. So, if I wake up at say nine-ish then I can watch TV and shower and play games and then when someone calls then I can be like "Heck yeah! Let's go do that mediocre thing I normally wouldn't enjoy doing but am going to do now out of boredom!"
3)Be more hygenic on days off. Again, I'm notorious for just lounging, and on lounge days then I just don't do ANYTHING. I mean wake up, cereal, games and tv all day, sleep. No shower, deodorant, ect. because I just think "Meh, I'm not planning on leaving today, what's the point." so I should change that. Good habbits, people, stay with me.
4)Ok, this next one is a bit more personal, but I was trying to get one of my good friends of mine(or I felt like we were good friends) to talk to me, because I had a semi important question that needed answering and I felt like she would know something good to say about it, and EVERY time I would call then I'd get no answer and then a text back saying "Hey, can't talk now, what's up?" or something to that extent, and that's gone on for a pretty long time, but I never thought much of it, but this time I told her I really wanted to talk and she wouldn't find the time to answer, so after a bit of talking(texting) then I got her to say that she was intimidated by me, and felt like every time we talked on the phone or in person then she didn't like it because she didn't have time to think about what she was going to say, so she always avoided it. We talked for a bit, but the point it this, I need to let the people who I care about in my life KNOW that I care about them and how I think they're awesome. I might be quick to poke fun at someone for something stupid they've done or said, but I never say a mean thing with the purpose of making someone feel bad, just providing everyone else with something to laugh at, does that makes sense? I mean, I'll make fun of myself if I do or say something stupid, too. Anyway, another bullet for working on.
5)Read scriptures and pray 6 nights a week. Again, hard habbit to build, easy to lose. I lost it, and I need it back. Going alongside this one is going to church every sunday possible. I often make up lame excuses for not going AKA too tired, football game on, ect. I still feel like a good spiritual person, but these things will help me. I REALLY do want to go on a mission after I'm out of the army, and there are a few things that make me not want to, but at my core then I NEED to go on one. When I was younger than it was all I wanted to do, and I honestly could never feel like a complete man unless I can someday tell my kids about where I did my mission and bore all my family members with pictures. I guess that comes down to wanting to be an example, and I think I could get away with saying "Oh, no I was in the army instead of doing a mission" and I'd feel fine to every adult I'd talk to about it, but when it comes to a)dating girls and b)one day raising kids then there is no reason to NOT go on a mission. I always feel like crap when I meet a really awesome new LDS girl and at some point then they think "I wonder where he went on his mission" and I have to say that I haven't gone yet, I could not take it if I was older and trying to date and I just said I didn't go. I wouldn't feel right raising a boy and telling him about how important a mission is and then saying "Oh, but I didn't go, I had better things to do." Even if he was only 8 the first time we talked about it, I'm sure he'd always remember that I didn't go, and it doesn't make him want to go, like seeing Ben go made me want to go. So, even though I want to be a good person to make my family, future wife and kids, the Utah Jazz, and all those other important people proud then I want to do it for me, so I can feel good about myself.
Yeah, that's about all of that I can think of right now. But, its up to you guys to keep pestering me about how I'm doing with them and making sure I'm staying on top of things.
I'm still not tired so let's talk about leave some.
Well, I got in town on the 18th or so and didn't do much that first night, just kinda hung out but the next day at church I ran into Andrew and me and him and we hung out for the next couple of days, not doing anything really exciting, but just lazing around and playing games like we used to do. Me and Andrew have this rare superpower that no matter how long it's been since we've seen each other, as soon as we see each other again than it's like we just saw each other yesterday. It's pretty awesome, because there is never any awkward goodbyes or hellos.
One Monday after I came then Andrew and I decided to go to lunch at Lazy D's, my friend Devvon's eatery, in Shelly and then go see Tron. We both got philly cheese steaks and were going to split a family fry. For those of you that don't know what a family fry is there are only two things you need to know:1)Go to Lazy D's, its amazing and 2)Its a giant monstrosity of fries made for large families, and almost no families actually finish it. Anyway, about halfway through my PCS I decided that it was important for us to finish that family fry. About 5 fries after that, Andrew decided he was done....We were only about 100 fries into this 700 fry project. I did the only thing I could do. The thing a real man would do. I ate fry after fry until it hurt. Then I continued to shove fries down my throat at the blazing fast pace of about 1 fry per minute. My epic struggle went on in this fashion for about another 40 minutes, and with about 100 fries left then I heard the fat lady warming her voice up and wanted to cry. I unbuttoned my pants and continued to drearily eat the fries. 50 left and I wanted to vomit with each fry. For the last hour or so people were telling me that I was crazy and to stop and that they didn't understand why I was doing it and all I could say was "I told myself I'd finish" between sobs. About 30 fries to go, and I did the unthinkable. I gave up. I could hardly move anymore I was so full and my legs had begun to fill in with fries. I may not have won this round, but I'll be back again....In several years.
Other fun things from leave. Well, I had wanted to see Lindsey Nelson at some point, but she was busy until after Christmas, and so was Lauren and Nathan was busy working and so on and so on. So, up until Christmas then I just lazed around and watched TV, but I'm ok with that, it was fun.
On Christmas Eve then I ended up coercing Ben into playing some basketball with me on the X-box and ended up losing track of time, but it was fun, and the next thing I knew it was 11 PM and I had to be at Mel's and Danny's house for the night, so I went over there. Doc was asleep downstairs in the same room I was going to be in, so I could snuggle with him on the couch(HA!) or sleep on their love seat. The love seat didn't seem like a bad idea at the time, so I got up on it and got ready to get to bed and then I realized that it didn't recline so I'd have to sleep on it sideways and put my head on the arms. Then I found out that both the arms seem to have had all their stuffing surgically removed by small child sized hands and were now just a layer of clothe over wood. That wasn't going to work. So, I sadly slunk down to the floor and curled up cat style and only got stepped on about 10 times as Leto walked over me. I swear he hit me with each of his four feet every time he walked by. I was woken far earlier than I'd prefer(noon, remember?) by Tristan who was saying I needed to come up to open presents and I told him I'd be up soon, and then rolled over and went back to sleep. Around 30 seconds later then Alex was there. And then Tristan again. Seeing I couldn't win this battle, I got up and went upstairs with them and we did the whole Christmas thing. It was pretty nice, I ate far too much candy, but I regret nothing, except the next morning chocolate hang over. We ended up going to Ben and Linda's for dinner and the next day the family, including Haley, Dallin, Hunter, Chris and two of his boys, all got together at Mel's and Danny's for a Christmas get together and that was nice to see everyone. I ended up going downstairs with the kids and we made a blanket fort that went OVER the TV and watched Stewart Little in there. Feel free to be in awe of my fort making prowess.
The next day I hung out with Nathan and Whitni in the morning, and Lindsey in the night and that was fun. The next day Lindsey and I went on a date, and that was pretty fun, too. The next week or so was just hanging out with various people like Devvon and Nathan and Whitni.
One night I was hanging out with Devvon and we were on our way to Subway when I got a phone call from Lauren, who I had been trying to hang out with for a while but she's ALWAYS busy since she's moving and trying to say goodbye to everyone, and she had a squirrel in her house and needed to me come and get it out. So, I went over there and met her and Courtney Williams there and they said the squirrel was in the family room, so I opened the door to the outside and tried to chase him out, and after about a half hour of searching for him to no avail I decided that he must have run out, but she kept a trap on her table, just in case. Even though it was to chase a squirrel out and we didn't get to hang out much, I was glad to see her. In case you were wondering, she ended up getting the squirrel in the trap the next day, I felt very immasculated by it, but at least she got it.
I ended up eventually convincing Lauren to go on a date with me, since that seemed the only way I could hang out with her and this just so happened to be the day that Ben needed help moving ALOT of crap out of an old house. A few days earlier he had been told that if he moved it he could keep whatever he wanted, and I had agreed to help him. We started moving and it was WAY more stuff than we had imagined. I had showered that morning, but after moving stuff all day and playing with the dust bunnies than my deoderant didn't stand a chance. We eventually got done at 5 and I had just enough time to shower again in time for the date(cutting it a bit close) and since I had spent all day moving that then I had put absolutely NO thought into the date, except to worry that I had one that evening. As such, I had no idea what do to or where to go, so I last minute checked Fandango and got tickets for How Do You Know and The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, just in case she didn't want to see How Do You Know because of its rating. We ended up going to TGIF and eating and then seeing HDYK(guess the extra tickets were moot, all well) and even though it was a good date then I felt bad. The last time I took her on a date then I was sixteen and Curtis had proposed a double date to the sand dunes and we organized the date in about 45 minutes for a fire out there with hot dogs and smores and it turned out badly planned. Curtis forgot the fire started or any fire source, so he went and got that with his date while Lauren and I played frisbee. Then he remember that hot dogs need condiments and left to get that while Lauren lit everything she could fit into the fire on fire. Eventually the date came together, and it actually turned out a good date, as did this one, but the moral is the same, I am incapable of planning a date out well as long as she's involved.
The next few days were basically just the goodbyes and nothing else REALLY exciting. It was a good leave break, I wish I had another.
I was really sad on Sunday to be leaving and the plane ended up getting delayed(remember that story?) which made me irritated, but it turned out to be a small blessing in a disguise. I ended up talking to this cute girl who was in the army while we were delayed and about 3 hours after were were supposed to have landed then the finally boarded the plane and it turns out that we had been seated next to each other, which was awesome. We ended up talking the whole flight even though we were both way tired, but she was just amazing, and I was enjoying talking too much to sleep. We ended up exchanging phone numbers at the end of the flight and she's here are FLW for a while, so that made a real crap day into a great day.
After getting my bags I met up with Harry and Kevin and we left STL. Kevin went to sleep in the back and me and Harry caught up with the last few weeks events and talked the whole way back and just jammed out so music we love. We got back this morning at 6 and my leave was officially over.
Now its 1 AM and I need to be at work at 630, so I guess I should go to sleep. Hopefully I can keep up with good posts like this, keep pestering me when I don't.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Hello, Champion City....
Daddy is home......
If you don't know what that quote is from then go rent Mystery Men and watch it. And wait for me to come and watch it with you, its an awesome movie. Anyway, I'm back in Fort Leonardwood, not sure how I feel about that. Well, no, I don't like it, but I'm going to try and make the best of it, although I feel like I could use another week with a few people(week for each) but all well, I suppose.
Back to the list, I must finish it.
Day 12 - A photograph of the town you live in.
Again, I don't take photos that much, but here is a photo of 'Jim and his kids in 1996' in Idaho Falls. I found it online and I like it better than a normal picture of the temple, which is what most pictures are of Idaho Falls. Now this post has some character and if it ever makes it big then that guy can sue me for putting his image on here.
If you don't know what that quote is from then go rent Mystery Men and watch it. And wait for me to come and watch it with you, its an awesome movie. Anyway, I'm back in Fort Leonardwood, not sure how I feel about that. Well, no, I don't like it, but I'm going to try and make the best of it, although I feel like I could use another week with a few people(week for each) but all well, I suppose.
Back to the list, I must finish it.
Day 12 - A photograph of the town you live in.
Again, I don't take photos that much, but here is a photo of 'Jim and his kids in 1996' in Idaho Falls. I found it online and I like it better than a normal picture of the temple, which is what most pictures are of Idaho Falls. Now this post has some character and if it ever makes it big then that guy can sue me for putting his image on here.
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